i feel really bitter lately. i don't want to hang out with anyone. i'm angry and frustrated with my life. i don't even know where to begin.

i want to make new friends. but how? i want to be a better person. but how? i am of the opinion that my life sucks. i want to live a better life. i want friends that share my ideals and goals and everything. people who are adventurous and unpretentious and wild and free. i don't know. i want to go on adventures. that's all i've ever really wanted. my boyfriend is gone for a month overseas, and as lame as it sounds, i miss him a lot, and i wish he was here. i wish i had more friends. i wish i wish i wish.

i'm getting tired of this town, and tired of sitting still. i'm tired of feeling powerless and alone. i don't know what i want to do with my life, and i don't want to figure it out just yet. but i feel pressure to plan out my life. i just want to see the world and meet new people and learn. i don't add anything to the group dynamic, so i can see why my friends don't like having me around. i feel utterly ordinary.