stuff that would make me happy:

if i had enough money/resources to move out to new york for the summer and do an internship for bust magazine

if i could find cute, flattering, affordable clothes in my size and not have to hunt them down on the internet and not be able to find them in stores

if people would just stop being hateful little boogers towards each other. like, dude, we're not in junior high anymore, why do you feel the need to judge people because of their job/income/weight/gender/race/major/clothes/religion/preferred pizza topping? get over yourself!

if also people would just do what makes them happy, and doesn't hurt anyone. if you want to run a multi-billion dollar corporation, sweet! just don't do it at the cost of people's quality of life. don't pollute streams with toxic waste or withhold health insurance benefits from your workers while you fly around in your private jet.  if you want to get married and pop out 20 kids, awesome! just don't tell everyone that's the right way, that what you did is the way to true happiness. if you want to fly to the moon, do it! if you want to be a director, do it!

if there was a less narrow definition of beauty. why is a blonde, skinny, and tan attractive? because we are told it's supposed to be. if we tune out of the corporate drivel and the marketers that deliver blows to our self esteem, we can tune into our true wants and desires. do we really want everyone to look alike? do we really want to look like everyone else? do we really want to be told what we're supposed to be attracted to? human bodies are not to be consumed like any other marketable object, but that's the way it's going.

if we just helped each other out. that doesn't make us lazy. i'm so saddened by the politicos and the people who refuse to support government programs because they help other people. some people don't have 'boot-straps' to pull themselves up by. if there's limited government help, like the school lunch program, scholarships, unemployment benefits, healthcare, then it's good. i don't advocate a so called nanny state, but i do think that it's better to pay a little more in taxes for the better of society than to hoard money while everyone suffers. that's no way to be apart of a community.

if my mom was still here. i miss her and my brother and my dogs and cats. :(

if i could just let go, and be. i want to do what i want, i want to be who i want, without any outside pressure telling me how to do things. i'll do things the way i want.

if money wasn't such a big issue. why does it even exist? we are the only ones who give it power. yet one has to have a certain amount of money to live comfortably, and even more to live how they want. i wish doing what you wanted wasn't dictated by how much money you had/ how much you got paid. if money were no object, then the really really rich would be just like everyone else and people wouldn't see what the big deal was. if there was no money, i would be able to do so much more. everyone would.

and a lot of other things.

I WANT TO SEE THE WORLD. AND MEET EVERYONE.